Walking through parking lots and grocery stores with kids in tow almost always elicits some comment from a stranger. “You’ve got your hands full!” (Uh… I guess? Thanks?) and “Are they twins?” (No… they are two years apart…) are the most common.
Unfortunately, however, there are many, many strangers in this world who like to remind young mothers of the speed of life – and when I am least expecting it, they pop my preoccupied bubble to share their wisdom. But is it really wisdom? It is truth, that’s for sure. Life really does move quickly – we all know that. Even a brand new mother of an 7-month old realizes that her time with an infant has whizzed by and is almost over. But wisdom… maybe not.
But I also don’t want to live in fear and anxiety. I would much rather live fully in these moments than living in worry about how much my future self will miss my current stage of life or living in regret at how much time has already passed and how much I miss the past.
Can you see where I am going with this? No, I don’t want to eat my children when they grow up. But it reminded me that I am excited to see what they become, and that I don’t actually want to freeze them in time! I am excited to watch their minds begin to mature and develop. I am excited to watch their individuality blossom. I am excited to see what they do and where they go and what kind of difference they make in the world. I am excited to be their friend!
But, if possible, I would much rather practice living with anticipation rather than worry. Fully enjoying these moments (as much as one can enjoy being jumped on, talked-nonstop-to, woken up, spit up on, and occasionally yelled at), and yet remembering that these moments are not the end point. They are not the only thing I will get to enjoy! They are the steps we are taking on the road to full, fruitful, and independent lives – lives that I will forever get to cherish and be intimately related to.
So, to my little squashling children? You are adorable! You are tiny, but I can see your personalities and your ideas beginning to take shape. You are already like small adults in so many ways. I love watching you develop, and I can’t wait to see where you are in one year, two years, and even 10 years. As long as you don’t grow as fast as zucchini squash, you have my full permission and blessing to keep on growing! I will enjoy these moments – but I will try to hold on to them lightly, with anticipation for what is to come.